Summer Blues

Well Grandmother has told me that I have ten days to find a job, which probally means she is shipping me off to Houston. Which I can't admit allowed or else it will cause a big fight, but honestly I really want her to. I could work in the museum which I would prefer over Dr. Tubb's office. I would be able to be with Joey and Clark. And I would be myself again. Day by day I am losing myself here. I am sleeping all the time, or just sitting around with not much to say. I love you Brandon, but you know how much this has been bugging me. Maybe I should just call her and get it over with soon. Ask her if I could get my job at the museum. If it is at the bank, then I do have my draw backs, b/c that would just be stressful. Oh I could just cry right now I feel so empty. Well I better get ready for work.