Keep your head UP not Down

well its almost time to go to class i get to see my baby for about 5 minutes before she leaves town, im gonna try not to worry babbe and im going to try to do things to keep me occupied while your gone, I am a little sad it will be a whle before i get to see her again, but nothing like this fall is going to be I dont know what im going to do at least your only 2 hours away. I love my baby more than anything else i tell her all the time. I think i might get my haircut today if my mom will let me I really need a job i think that would help but i would be afraid i wouldnt get to hang out much, but thats all about growing up right? well im off to History and then to see my baby one more time before she leaves, be careful and have fun babe Ill be waiting here for you when you get back, and I love you!!!!!!

Love
Mr. Brightside

Thankz Josh!!!

Sorry I didn't get a chance to call you tonite Josh. Brandon and I went to my house and pack, and started a movie...it ran later than I figured. I had so much fun this afternoon though. It really helped me to calm down allot about school. Thank you so much!!!

*poof*

I'm never going to make it out of English with an A at this rate!!!

Well mom called while I was at the office and asked if I could go pick up her prescription from Albertson's before seven, which means it is pretty much pointless to try to get started on that damn paper. Why do we have to take the damn class anyway? I'm not going to be studying the iniquity of man for the rest of my life, I'm going to be coloring on blue prints. And I don't need to reflect and find the inner me through writing. I found myself this summer sitting at a river. ugh. :( I'm so stressed right now. I just can't focus.

If it's not broke, than don't fix it.

Wow I feel tons better since I told him what was on my mind. I love you baby. I realized allot while talking to Jessica today, I think Jessica is the best thing that could have happened to me right now. I only wish I could help her as much as she helped me, but how can you help someone that doesn't see a problem? She is such an awesome person, I just wish she knew how to be herself without Chris having to dictate her life. But she seems happy so why mess with it. I just hope it doesn't turn out miserable for her in the end.

Really Eerie small world thing

Okay, seeing you two are not only my closest friends but my only real local friends I feel okay telling ya'll but i have a secret blog (which I mentioned previously) well an eerie small world thing just happened to me on my blog. I go on the blog rings and go around and meet new people from all over the nation, Iowa, Georgia and so on and so forth. Well I went to the paranormal blogring and see this person update that they are ending their blog for they are tired of a tomb so called. Well I messaged some encouraging words to help this person through with out glancing at any of the other updates and moved on (Thinking nothing of it ofcourse). Well, I thought of him randomly tonite, wondering if the poor soul was feeling any better or had noticed my comment. I go on and this guy is talking about a new happiness Angela, and I think how coincidental Patrick has an Angela now too as his new happiness. And then it clicked and I started scrolling through updates seeing each one complied with the occurances that happened between us since the beginning of April. The I saw he had only subscribed to two blogs mine and some other girls. So I clicked on it and it was Angela from Waco!!! I was so upset that he had found my blog, but not so badly that i will end it, b/c I can always protect the rest of my updates so that only certain ppl can read them. So upsetting though. I hate some small world scenarios. Out of all the people of the nation I had to comment on his.

Needing to get my act together!!!

::sigh:: Got my Texas Tech stuff done for housing. I'm having such a difficult time with English though. I really need to get on the ball with things. I should have my paper through right now but I am still stuck on the second support. I just am having a brain fart. But I have gotten some of support three done in my time of stress and thought. So many other things seem so much more appealing than working on the paper. Love you guyz! Help me stay focused and make sure I'm working on my paper, I dont trust myself AT ALL!

I had a bad day Again...

there I POSTED and Jessie is hot, and I am still typing this is aa waste of cyberspace speaking of cberspace.............--->Jessie here interupting Brandon's lil thing...you will have to excuse him today he is grumpy ;) Now back to the post----> ok after being told i was grumpy........ its been a bad day dont wanna talk about it all i want to say is I love my baby and that is all that is important...

Somewhere only we know...

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

[break]

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Ummm...

Ya, well somehow I posted it twice...so I couldn't find a delete so I am just going to try to cover it up by reposting something lol! ;) This will be great.

Tired and excited about my new online toy!

This will be so great. Hehe I love getting new things to do online. I'm still upset about Chase. I don't recall myself ever getting that dark (and we all know just how dark I can get). hehe. I have an English paper I SHOULD be working on but ::shrugs:: I also need to work on my article review. And I shoudl start studying Government about now I guess. Too much to do. I also should be looking up dorms and signing up at Tech right now...::takes a deep breath:: I guess I will be fine. I just really need to get my act together. I need to stop letting the little things distract me from the big important things. Oh well. So much stress so little time to deal with it. There is more but let's not get into that at the moment we have too much else to deal with today. well I'm out!