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Farewell Joshua...we are going to Hel...::clears throat::...New Mexico...see you if we make it out with out being possessed by Smokey the Bear chanting over and over again "Burn baby Burn!" You see Smokey is really not a hippie bear, he does not hug trees, in all reality he wants the land cleared for skyscrapers, amusement parks and honey fields. He will make us join his cult, and when we return we may appear normal, but watch out, for the ways of the Smokey are very manipulating. ;) MUAHAHAHAHA HA...::blinks::...HA...::looks around::...HAHAHa

Brandon denies the ways of the anti-hippie Smokey and is requesting that I end this now...I have said too much...this post will self destruct in five seconds...

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Wow...the power of Chai!!!

Stress

well I have gotten back from Austin and it has sucked so much. I quit my job at the cotton patch YAYAYAYAY I feel so much better, i feel like a brand new person, now I spend time researching on how to repair computers so I can make money at least. I talk to the greatest girl in the world last night and she gave me some advice on how to deal with some of my situations and that was great I thik it may actually be a way out of here. Thank you babe. on another note the Trip was fun I got to go to a lake I havent been to the lake in forever, now all I need is a boat. so much to do in the next few weeks. I found out my roommates and the main one that I share everything with is a guy I know from Midland we used to knida be friends and talked a little in class, but now we are going to be living together for the next year. Im really excited, but I may not stay at tech, after being in austin I dont feel like there could be a better area to live in except south, and southeast Texas....... GOD I WANT TO GO BACK!!!!!!!!

Austin

That was the greatest weekend of my life!!!! But now I'm in hell again, with the worst headache in the world.

The internet is ...... Back!!!

so I got my internet back the satellite company cut our cable so its been pretty stupid. Mom and Dad left for Chicago today.... So glad they are gone it has been really stresful the past couple of weeks but its ok becasue the best girl in the world has helped me through it. Got sick yesterday at work and so I came home and Nathan wants a doctors note, but I dont feel like I really need to go to the doctor for it becasue it acts like its going away, I mean what can I say Sorry I went home sick and you saw me sick, would you like a note saying that I was sick when you sat there and watched me the whole Fucking time" really give me a break. I think I am going to go see Doctor Brachetta soon to go have my surgery( all it took was a little persuasion). I am going to take it easy the next couple of days so I wont be too sick it still comes and goes. I have three more weeks at the cotton patch YAY i cant wait, but if I really can help david before then I may just help him until I can go to school Today has been a pretty good day so far I just love seeing Jessie she makes me feel so great when shes around. I love you baby!!!

Brandon

Daddy's Day

I'm really doing good compared to most Dad's day. I just like to pretend it's not. A time for kids to spend with their father's and show how much they love them. I don't recall ever really doing anything for dad on a father's day, except for whatever we would do in Kid's college or something, I rarely got to see my dad on father's day when he was alive that I can recall. He was always out of town on work, and I stuck in Houston with Grandmother, giving Granddaddy all my daddy gifts. Granddaddy was always like my second father, and he is the reason I continue trying to be the perfect child. Once he passes away too though...::sigh:: We just won't talk about it...I think I'm going to give Granddaddy a call.

No Phone...

Got my new phone, it's a hell-of-a-lot hotter than my old one! :)) But I still have a while until it will work. Still trying to think of way to have more money. I can't really get a new job, b/c that means I would work for two weeks and then put my two weeks notice in...that kind of stinks for the person, and probally wouldn't look good on future refrences. But I keep coming up with new expenses. Gas, NuVante renewal, Birth Control...it all is coming up, and I barely have enough to make it through what I have right now. And my parents won't let me work as much as I wish. David doesn't let me go, mom doesn't let me stay. SO stressed...

Mom

Sometimes I just wish I could talk to my mother. All my friends that are girls are so close to their mothers, and they are able to talk to them about everything, and I mean everything. I just confessed to mom that I have had a drink of alcohol twice, not drunk, just a drink of alcohol and she is panicking on the verge of tears and it has been like twenty minutes. This is just ridiculous. "Fighting with fire Jessica". That is all she will say to me.

::sigh of relief::

YES! I failed the test!

Feeling better...

Wow, as long as I'm not lying down alone I am pretty much fine. Last night I really feel was not far off from a complete nervous breakdown. But it will work out. I love you my baby, and I'm so glad you are sticking by my side. Keri comes tonite, I should be feeling better after that.

Get well soon

My Baby is sick and ts sad to watch her lay there and be so miserable I wish there was something to do It makes me feel so terrible to sit and wathc her suffer. Get well soon babe!!!

JESS

I AM WATCHING YOU POST RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!

To Josh:

I really like this blog thing, it is my favorite...but it kind of sucks when you feel alone on it. :'(

Secrets

well its june second 2 months ago I dated the girl of my dreams ans im so glad shes there. I cant really explain how i feel Kind of a cross between depressed, sad, and just all aout dissapointment in a way. after going home at midnight and talking to dad until 3am i finally got some thinking done. I feel like a very terrible person, I feel like she doesnt deserve me. I dont know what to do now and that scares me and so I just sit here and watch the clock tick as the time moves, and I watch the seconds tick by. I feel like last night Jesss I made you angry and Im sorry if I did I just feel soo terrible and I dont know what to do. I want to see you right now, I want to hold you, I want to tell you how much I love you right now. I hope to see you soon babe, I love you with all my heart.

Love
Brandon

Terrible

You two are terrible at this blog thing. You know that? lol. Josh your supposed to be updating what is going on in Dallas while Brandon and I update what is going on in Lubbock. DUH. Gah you suck. lol ;)